in nervous company

Sitting along the western coast,
I wonder if she knows I want Him.
If I knew how to complete a real word with true sentiment, this would be it.
Controversy everywhere.
My arms extended over head,
I'm reaching out to the sunlight.
The Pacific's mist kisses my face and here in space,
I am leaving this empty feeling behind.

it's a shame, we both lived a half fast life
we just do.

Calla calla calla

She lost her moment in a wild fire.
At the river, we each threw a single memory of you hoping the current would cleanse your tiresome eyes and bring her life, once again.
I am saddened by the fact that I lost sight of her affection tonight.

Quick to judge,
I am loathing each minute with an anxious despair.
I never would have thought I would have grown so reluctant
phased by the ridicule
I looked to my rear view mirror and noticed everything has just fallen behind..

I am so exhausted.

ugh