what i want:
a warm bed
no nonsense
a whim
i went out tonight. i saw an opportunity to get raw but i went home. i cannot, i will not. I have had my fairshare of indiscriminate affaris. I'm tried. I just want one at the moment. and not even for that long, maybe just long enough to do something right.
honestly what is about the life that has people losing their minds.
I purposley straddle the line between yes and no just because i like how it feels to get so out of control. I have to make the decision to be red or blue. But i like luke warm. Call it an imitators instinct to play both sides. Root of evil? No, just a researcher out of touch. like a mad scientist, i usually complete what i want in tact. except for this time i've never dealt with someone who just didnt react. maybe a taste of my own medicine? or an outlet for further distruction. Oy. either whore.
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I think that if you only ever straddle the line between then it´s not the feeling of getting so out of control that you like, rather it is the feeling of security and control. once you choose one side over the other and fully commit to it, then you have the opportunity to lose all control.
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