What I didn't do

untrust

do you remember that time we sat in my car and we talked about every moon and star
and that time you shedded a tear but i refused to hold you near
or that time we never knew
of anything else except for longing that new
something new
something unfamiliar and
queer
but i cannot say for myself.
if i were to listen to this song on repeat i swear it would give me every reason to stay
but as ben gibbard stated it best
'and here i rest where disappoint and regret collide laying awake at night'

but none the less this has nothing to do with anyone in particular. i'm just saying, this is how i've felt at all times with people know and unknown. to my unknown i wish we could just be strangers again.
its 2:27am and i cant seem to rest my shy eyes
this isnt the end but just the beginning.
when i see the girl i see a longing sad soul
and i cant help but be the humanitarian
and say
just look at me and say
everything will be ok

i've never seen anyone cook a turkey in a crock pot. is that even possible?
i guess, if you live by the saying anything is possible.

I was watching greys anatomy today. such a good show. and today i woke up at 6am. i almost forgot how gorgeous early mornings are. with the sky still gray and a mysterious mist protruding, my eyes, my sight is sensational. reminds me of last winter. the past lingers in my mind although i am trying very forget. not to be confused with suppress. or not even forget, just....

MOOOOVVEEEE OONNN!!!

and idle mind wreaks havoc. can you breathe? is your body sore? i adore thee brown eyes. in modest stature i stood unwilling to comply with the needs of the devil. For what i want is unlikely. this host is a realist. and i am convinced right inside my brain that there is a misunderstanding between you and i, an us, so we. such adjective makes things personal. personal? does that mean SOMEONE in particular? i know that is just what you always wanted to hear. WE US THEM THEY TOGETHER
you, i.. that means YOU & I
we us them they together
person A and person B working in unision? its your place pal.
we want us to be them like they are together.
i can't wait to hear from my pen pal.
darling, this is for you.

this afternoon i have a goal to steer clear. oh its so hard to breathe. i cant take a girl with a stuffy nose seriously.

i love my friends. they inspire me to be expressive.
but the most important thing i have yet learned is:
say what you mean
mean what you say
you cant be a little bit pregnant

WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?!
oh lol jk omg totally dude.
If i had a penny for every sarcastic comment i made....
i'd have 99 pennies but a bitch ain't one. ..

on a more serious note. As I was driving on the freeway to an undisclosed location today something came to me that goes a little like this.....

oh get wise my foolish heart for these people may never know the toil we undergo.
Hold back your spite filled tongue and show compassion for those will eventually understand everything does happen with necessary reason. But do not mistake chance for truth because clearly, nothing is sacred in this city. May my secrets be kept between i and the trees, there are snakes in the grass and distrustful whispers in the air. Careless words spread careless thoughts that evoke careless actions that result in feud. so please, to those i love, do not live in angst or uncertainty. Because everything will be ok... for love is all accepting and unconditional, I will stay true to my word, to the best of my ability. Just say anything true. If you think im full of shit, then i think youre full of shit. =]